Haha, sorry for being confusing. Easy breakdown would be something like

Nine+things leading to regen->super human things->Ten
Ten->Tragedy/Angst/Tragedy/Sadness/Loss
Loss->I don't want to go become another person I like this person (A)
A->look what the emotional wreck I ended up dying as that's no good too emotional step back->Eleven

Though I don't know if that's actually easier to understand.